Subscribe with Bloglines The Whatever File: 12/29/08


Almost a new year!

I find it interesting and amazing to read my previous posts and see how life has unfolded in such a short amount of time. Bobby and I have not lived together now for over 8 mos. and as can be expected I have filed for divorce which should be final soon. Those months gave me a lot of time to reflect on my life, marriage, and what I wanted for myself and for Sierra. I spent alot of time early on grieving the end of the marriage even before I was ready to admit to him that it was over. I am in a healthy place mentally, I am happy with this decision and realize that there was no way we could have made the marriage work coming from two very different religious beliefs. In my life, God must come first and in his life God is not a priority at all. I do pray that God will use someone to show him what it is he is missing and that one day he will accept Jesus in his life, otherwise I cannot imagine how horrible his life will be. I also hope he finds the happiness he deserves.

Because of the sensitiveness of divorce I have been hesitant to speak about or even write about how my life has changed. In a short amount of time, I have met someone, a Godly man who shares the same love and passion for Christ that I do. We have a Christ-centered life as it should be and I enjoy attending church with him, doing a bible study, or just reading Oswald Chambers together. He is an amazing man and I know where my future is going with him. How can love happen so quickly? It's like we both lived a whole other life just waiting until God picked the perfect time to bring us together. While I don't know God's will I do feel, He has a plan to use me and I don't feel useless in His Kingdom any longer where before I did. Where before I seemed to be blindly following the winds of life and where it might take me, now I feel that God has a ministry planned for me, with Chris. I run towards this change in my life feeling the excitement of the hopes of finally being used by God.

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